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Welp, it looks like time for me to come crawling back here after a long stretch of nothing but Yuletide letters.
The thing is, I think of DW as a fannish space and I haven't really had a fandom for a while, it's been weird. The last one I had was Yona of the Dawn which (checks old entries) was already on the wane two years ago (the Xing arc really did break me and I still haven't caught back up on the manga, although at one point I got a peek at later chapters and was like "That's a creative decision you made? Really? Okay, I guess..."). In the meantime I did have a flirtation with Fire Emblem, but it didn't really take root or lead to any writing or anything.
It felt like the first time in my life I'd gone so long without that kind of fannish passion, and I was starting to wonder if it was just gone, like had my hormones changed so I wasn't going to do that anymore. If I'd told my late-teen self that such a thing would ever happen, she would have thought it was the most tragic fate possible but I was actually pretty okay. I mean I missed it, I thought it would be a little sad if that phase of my life had passed and gone, but I didn't need it to survive or be happy.
And it looks like it was a false alarm anyway as I have now gone head-over-heels for The Untamed/Mo Dao Zu Shi. (The drama is my favorite version, then the novel, then the animation.) Plotbunnies are bounding through my head, and I even have one fic fully drafted that I should really edit and go beta-searching for. (In surfing Ao3 for others' fics, I get a kick out of tags like "no beta we die like INSERT CANON CHARACTER(S)" but I'd rather do the due diligence if I can.)
It's kind of a mixed blessing, though. Covid social distancing has been challenging for me. On the one hand I do get lonely and find it harder than usual to have satisfying social experiences, but on the other hand I'm tempted to give in to introverted coping and be all like yes, isolation, give me more of that! And now being drunk on fandom seems to inflame the latter tendency, like I'm trying to wrangle feelings where I want the rest of my life to just leave me the bleep alone and let me play with my new toys.
Ah, well, a pandemic is not a good time to pressure myself to get it together...
The thing is, I think of DW as a fannish space and I haven't really had a fandom for a while, it's been weird. The last one I had was Yona of the Dawn which (checks old entries) was already on the wane two years ago (the Xing arc really did break me and I still haven't caught back up on the manga, although at one point I got a peek at later chapters and was like "That's a creative decision you made? Really? Okay, I guess..."). In the meantime I did have a flirtation with Fire Emblem, but it didn't really take root or lead to any writing or anything.
It felt like the first time in my life I'd gone so long without that kind of fannish passion, and I was starting to wonder if it was just gone, like had my hormones changed so I wasn't going to do that anymore. If I'd told my late-teen self that such a thing would ever happen, she would have thought it was the most tragic fate possible but I was actually pretty okay. I mean I missed it, I thought it would be a little sad if that phase of my life had passed and gone, but I didn't need it to survive or be happy.
And it looks like it was a false alarm anyway as I have now gone head-over-heels for The Untamed/Mo Dao Zu Shi. (The drama is my favorite version, then the novel, then the animation.) Plotbunnies are bounding through my head, and I even have one fic fully drafted that I should really edit and go beta-searching for. (In surfing Ao3 for others' fics, I get a kick out of tags like "no beta we die like INSERT CANON CHARACTER(S)" but I'd rather do the due diligence if I can.)
It's kind of a mixed blessing, though. Covid social distancing has been challenging for me. On the one hand I do get lonely and find it harder than usual to have satisfying social experiences, but on the other hand I'm tempted to give in to introverted coping and be all like yes, isolation, give me more of that! And now being drunk on fandom seems to inflame the latter tendency, like I'm trying to wrangle feelings where I want the rest of my life to just leave me the bleep alone and let me play with my new toys.
Ah, well, a pandemic is not a good time to pressure myself to get it together...
