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foxinthestarsWhy is it that as a writer, and particularly a fanfic writer, there are important things that I just never seem to learn, or else am constantly forgetting?
Why is it that if the canon "changes" somehow from my viewpoint, I still feel it in my gut like the ground moved underneath me, when I've been here and done this and I ought to know you have to just hit a point like "I'm working from XYZ and ignoring the rest; gotta problem with that!??"
Why do I get so scared between changing too much and not changing enough?
Why do I get so scared that I'm going to mischaracterize someone, and simultaneously scared that I'm overidealizing them as a favorite or smothering my work with straight laces, and that I'm going to piss someone off by making a character look bad or have plots including unvirtuous screwups and such?
In short, why am I always scared that I'm doing it wrong? (Including sometimes the fear that I do it wrong by not doing it wrong enough.)
Why is it that if the canon "changes" somehow from my viewpoint, I still feel it in my gut like the ground moved underneath me, when I've been here and done this and I ought to know you have to just hit a point like "I'm working from XYZ and ignoring the rest; gotta problem with that!??"
Why do I get so scared between changing too much and not changing enough?
Why do I get so scared that I'm going to mischaracterize someone, and simultaneously scared that I'm overidealizing them as a favorite or smothering my work with straight laces, and that I'm going to piss someone off by making a character look bad or have plots including unvirtuous screwups and such?
In short, why am I always scared that I'm doing it wrong? (Including sometimes the fear that I do it wrong by not doing it wrong enough.)
